Just Cry When You Are Feeling So Much Pain


I got the phone call yesterday night like I said at the previous. It was bad news but I didn’t cried at all. How would you cry if your bro is staring at you and then suddenly you burst into tears. My bro keep teasing me with the song “Bleeding Love”. Haha! Funny though the way he sing. You cut me open and I keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding in love.

Got a message saying that Jojo (the Joshua at Singapore one) is going to some kpop performance on 23 oct. Lol, is he that the only thing you can tell me in the darn letter. And why cant you juz e-mail. Its easier and its free. Lol, maybe he know I don’t even look at my inbox but I log in FB everyday.

Went to school filled with desperation. Put on a fake smile even it hurts so much in the heart. What could I do? Frown in front of my fwens? Not gonna do it. I juz pretended that nothing had happened before and juz let it go. Lol, junxiang said that I’m sad when Cassandra is not around. Hmmm…kinda but we talk bout’ a lot of things and not juz bout’ kpop. Haha! Jocelyn asked jazlyn if she can print Taemin’s picture for her. Jazlyn went to google and searched some cute pics of Taemin. I wan also >.<

Went back to class. Math lesson. God, can you spare me and tell teacher not to give us homework. I think god heard me. Teacher came in and juz discuss bout’ yesterdays homework. I think I’m starting to love this teacher. Lol, Joshua got scolded by Javier cuz he did some simple mistakes when he wrote the answer on the board. He got the answer from yinjie’s book and yinjie’s got her answer from my book so I think I’m the one who should get blamed.

Recess. Lol, I was planning to go library but its closed. I think library is closed on Friday. Too bad lah. Went down to the canteen. I was like “what are you eating?” to daphne and she was like “I’m eating what xinwey is eating.”. I turned and looked at xinwey and said “I’ll eat what you eat.”. I said I want to drink soya milk only. She called me to pick something other than drinks but insisted.

In the end, we didn’t eat at all. Only daphne bought a drink. Cassandra was not eating anyway. It was a moody day so we didn’t laughed so much. We barely even talked bout’ anything. The tense atmosphere became heavier. When is recess over? Bell rang when I was thinking of it. Went back to class. On the way back, we didn’t talked that much also. The normal days, we chat like there’s no tomorrow.

Science lesson. Went to science lab. Sat with xinwey. Told her bout’ the yesterday’s phone call and her reaction is juz like I told her a big secret. Lol, she’s threatening me with that so-called secret. Lol, what’s the big deal? She ditched me and went to find daphne. Lucky junxiang and izaaz came to talk to me. Thnx guyz? Lol, kelly came and juz sat there quietly. Lol, izaaz wanted kelly to join us but why conversation to conservation. Junxiang is like “you missed the monkeys right?”. I laughed for real. Izaaz’s face was damn funny.

BM. I hate you. I didn’t listen to teacher when she was teaching. I don’t like malay drama, sorry. BI lesson. Major disappointment. Got back our paper 2 eng test. I got 37 over 50. Whaddafark? I expected it to be 40 or something. It doesn’t matter but why kelly got 38? 1 mark more than me. Fine, I lost to her cuz my summary was weak and I left out one point. I admit it. But my essay wont be the same level as her. it’s the same, 23 over 30. Omg! I used up 40 mins on that essay and you say my level is as same as Kelly’s?

Pissed. Kelly, why arent you satisfied with your marks. You’re the best in our group and you’re still aren’t satisfied? A lot of people got lower marks than you and you don’t need to scream it out that you’re not satisfied with your marks. Man, are hurting peoples feelings. Yinjie is crying cuz her makrs are lower than her expectation and you said that you’re not satisfied with your marks? Hello? You got 38 and she got 28, there’s a big 10 marks gap between you two. Never mind. Like what Cassandra said. breath in, breath out.

Anyway, I got cheered up by my bro so no prob now ^^